Opinions

2025-5-24

I restrict my opinions online and even in person a lot more than I want to. I'm a very vocal leftist and activist, don't get me wrong, but even among my peers I feel like I can't speak my truth. It's not because my opinions are too conservative or whatever, in fact, quite the opposite. I feel if my opinions and thoughts are in a sense too "woke" for those around me. I am not saying this to sound pretentious, I am saying that as a fact.

Hell even in writing this blogpost, this very anonymous blog post, did I stop myself from voicing myself truly. I just feel like I will be criticized too harshly, or judged in a way I don't think matches the crime, so to speak. I am a person with many thoughts on how we should run our government, our society, our world, and it is not one with as many restrictions as others around me want. I'm not saying I want it to be completely lawless, or that there be no rules or regulations whatsoever, but I feel like the restrictions our governments currently have are not fit for a better society.

I hate that I can't express my own opinions. I feel like it has to do with a mixture of my own OCD and the current state of the internet and "cancel" culture. If someone doesn't agree with your opinion, instead of trying to learn, they seek out ways to make others hate and judge you. And it isn't like my opinions are particularly bad, they just go against the flow of what other people from the "socialist revolution" we want to be heading towards. It makes me sad. O I think that I should be able to share these opinions, especially anonymously, without having to worry about doxxing or death threats or piss on the poor reading comprehension that causes people to dogpile me, but alas that's all I can think of at the thought of actually expressing myself.

Maybe this diary will help me. Maybe we'll see my opinions soon. I hope so. The more they stay bottled inside me, the more defeated I feel. I want to be heard and I want to express myself without the fear of others wanting me put on the internet trial and found guilty of going against what internet people find acceptable. Why should I care what people on the internet think of me? I shouldn't, but I do. The internet scares me everyday. Especially with both the average person and the government finding out everything about even with precaution.

The internet is a scary, judgmental place. That's my opinion.